A stateless state

I'm tired and I want to yap

When did it all start? as i’m brushing my teeth, as i’m hanging my laundry, between scrolls and pages. I can't really pinpoint when anything started. Libya, for instance, never really had any true independence through out history, except after the resistence. Prior to that we were always some empire’s great gate to the Mediterranean and strongest sea front.

Why did a man like Gaddafi find way amongst Libyans? How did he manage to convince everyone, that the ruling class, and king, who is the party that granted us our very first independence in all of our history, and made us the very first state to declare independence in our region, to be a British imperialised regime?

Libyans are ignorant, they always were.

That’s my take, Libyans are not stupid, Libyans are actually some of smartest people I have met. Libyans also are great strategic fighters, we have won all of the wars we started, granted many of them were against our own self. The NATO never planned to interfere, but it had to, and it only destroyed civilians, in the end it was Libyans who caught m3amer. When he said his last words “i’m like your father, my boys” well, we all have daddy issues.

There is a famous video of when m3amer fell, of a grown man, having a hysterical breakdown in a hospital bed, throwing a tantrum like a kid and crying “I want daddy m3amer”

So many people couldn’t digest that Gaddafi fell, they really ate that “i’m god” propaganda of his, i’m pretty sure at least one person somewhere in my neighborhood still believes Gaddafi is alive in a different country.

The funniest part is, the more time passes, the more supporters his regime gains, those who opposed him since 1969. If you ask us right now? We would like him back very much. But we say that out of pain, out of defeat, not admiration.

The libyan reaction to anything that happens ever, is rip geddafi. They always find a way to quote him, or tie it back to him, like a toxic ex you are never able to move on from. Where is a Libyan, there is geddafi.

I hate it, everyone hates it, guys it’s been 14 years, just move on.

Everyone misses the past, thats what Arabs are good at, in old Arabic poetry, there is something called “standing on mounts” it is when the poet, stands on a high mount, and admire the path he crossed behind him. Rather than continuing on. Who has no past has no future, amiright?

ISLAMIST EXTREMIST TERRORIST IGNORANTS

If we are not geddafi’s offspring and minions, we are hidebound conservatives, i guess we are just reactionaries. The thing is, yes some Libyans were Islamists, they were against geddafi because, well, anyway. Geddafi locked them up, but when he noticed some people were using them against him, like they did in Iraq. He changed methods to befriending them, make your friends close and enemies closer. Except it was already too late. All the way before the revolution geddafi and Islamists were besties, but someone spread the word to protest? And once protests got louder, the Islamists declared they were pro-revolutionists. They lead the revolution, which is weird, because they never cared for the people, ever. There was never a direct connection between the people and the Islamists, that goes against their belief, because their whole thing is to think everyone is wrong.

Do you know what Islamists say nowadays? Revolutions are haram.

I guess a revolution is only halal when some foreign higher power pay you money.

I love living in an Islamic society, I love living in a modest society, I love being able to exist in men free spaces regularly, I love not having to talk to a man often. Why would I talk to man? Each time I do it I want to bang my head against the white concrete walls.

You can’t villainize Islam, not to me, not to most Libyans, or gazans, or Syrians, or Egyptians, not when it’s the only thing offering us hope.

I saw someone make this analogy and I don’t think any words of mine could describe current situation better, “libya is a large hotel, it’s rooms occupied by foreign embassadors and its corridors by Libyan housekeepers”

“I will never regret the revolution, and my participation in it. It is the most beautiful, most pure, most noble event of my life. It is not our fault we started it amidst machiavellianist, devoid of awareness ignorants” ¹

If one sees an atrocity, one must change it with his hand. if he couldn’t, then with his tongue. if he couldn't, then with his heart. And that is the weakest of faiths.

Not my words, the prophet’s, all great minds are revolutionists.

But we live in a time mindless people lead the revolutions.

When did it all start?

1. I am quoting out of context nothing is ever that simple